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Oct. 17th, 2006 03:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bazolomewSo I have never wanted to not be a part of my fraternity less than I have right now.
I’m pissed off and reckless at the moment, so I know I’m going to say things that I might regret later, but at the moment I don’t care. I just need to get it out. And it’s not like they’ll read this anyway.
I’m sick to death of tiptoeing around trying to not piss people off. There is so much I’m pissed about that I just want to scream at them until people understand but I never will because I’m too afraid to make people angry at me. Well fuck them. I don’t care.
See, half of our chapter has decided that they want to be stick-up-their-asses bitches about who we let in and who we don’t, but not based on any GOOD reason, like bandsmanship, but based on GPA and academics alone. Because apparently if you take less than THEIR idea of the CORRECT number of classes, “what are you even doing here?” You apparently don’t have your shit together and therefore are not good enough to serve the bands.
Not to mention the fact that candidates might now have to have a higher GPA to EVEN BE CONSIDERED for Brotherhood than current Active members. And their reasoning? Well because “our process has a tendency for people’s grades to go down”. DOESN’T THAT MEAN THE PROCESS NEEDS TO BE CHANGED INSTEAD OF THE PEOPLE?!?!?!?!?
Apparently not, because the THREE times I’ve brought this up, twice during a meeting, once during an email, NO ONE listens. They’re bound and determined to make it harder to start, instead of making it easier to accomplish.
I don’t understand this! I really don’t.
And then there’s Chronicles committee. I’ve been on this committee for a year. I’ve attended ONE meeting. The one meeting I attended was the one I organized and only one other person showed up. So we get stuff done, and then we take it to the meeting and instead of me talking about it (which I had assumed would be protical because I was present and facilitated it) the committee head talks about everything WE did as if SHE did it. So then I ask for people to submit pictures to ME or the committee, and SHE makes all the deals. (She’s gotten none, by the way.)
So this evening communications committee announces that Chronicles committee is helping them with a publication. And I’m like “Oh relaly? I wasn’t informed.” Because uhm, Chronicles committee has SIX FUCKING WEEKS to put together a scrapbook. But our committee head decided that “SURE! WE CAN DO THAT!” to the publication thing, which means we get to find time to write an article each for the publication that PROBABLY WON’T GO OUT because the LAST ONE DIDN’T.
The thing is that I’M feeling like the committee head because the real one does NOTHING, but I’m NOT so I’m stuck in this middle position where I do EVERYTHING and SHE takes all the credit AND makes stupid executive decisions. BUT I actually WANT to do the scrapbook, so it’s like WTF do I do? I don’t want to quit, but I don’t feel like I can go forward either.
So it’s come down to the idea that I’M PISSED and I think I’m going to go conditional for the rest of the semester because I CANNOT take this BULLSHIT anymore. I tried writing a letter to the chapter and it accomplished nothing except people congratulating me for speaking out- even though they don’t share my opinions.
The problem is the exec board. The majority of them stick up for each other, so anybody who has a different opinion is heard, but nothing changes.
I’m so sick of it. I’m SO sick of it. I want to go conditional, but if I do, I lose voting priveledges, so I lose my voice, however small it may be. So my only option is to stay active and wade through the shit for another month or so until we have elections.
Unless they all elect each other back on the fucking exec board like they did last time.
I’m so sick of this.
I’m pissed off and reckless at the moment, so I know I’m going to say things that I might regret later, but at the moment I don’t care. I just need to get it out. And it’s not like they’ll read this anyway.
I’m sick to death of tiptoeing around trying to not piss people off. There is so much I’m pissed about that I just want to scream at them until people understand but I never will because I’m too afraid to make people angry at me. Well fuck them. I don’t care.
See, half of our chapter has decided that they want to be stick-up-their-asses bitches about who we let in and who we don’t, but not based on any GOOD reason, like bandsmanship, but based on GPA and academics alone. Because apparently if you take less than THEIR idea of the CORRECT number of classes, “what are you even doing here?” You apparently don’t have your shit together and therefore are not good enough to serve the bands.
Not to mention the fact that candidates might now have to have a higher GPA to EVEN BE CONSIDERED for Brotherhood than current Active members. And their reasoning? Well because “our process has a tendency for people’s grades to go down”. DOESN’T THAT MEAN THE PROCESS NEEDS TO BE CHANGED INSTEAD OF THE PEOPLE?!?!?!?!?
Apparently not, because the THREE times I’ve brought this up, twice during a meeting, once during an email, NO ONE listens. They’re bound and determined to make it harder to start, instead of making it easier to accomplish.
I don’t understand this! I really don’t.
And then there’s Chronicles committee. I’ve been on this committee for a year. I’ve attended ONE meeting. The one meeting I attended was the one I organized and only one other person showed up. So we get stuff done, and then we take it to the meeting and instead of me talking about it (which I had assumed would be protical because I was present and facilitated it) the committee head talks about everything WE did as if SHE did it. So then I ask for people to submit pictures to ME or the committee, and SHE makes all the deals. (She’s gotten none, by the way.)
So this evening communications committee announces that Chronicles committee is helping them with a publication. And I’m like “Oh relaly? I wasn’t informed.” Because uhm, Chronicles committee has SIX FUCKING WEEKS to put together a scrapbook. But our committee head decided that “SURE! WE CAN DO THAT!” to the publication thing, which means we get to find time to write an article each for the publication that PROBABLY WON’T GO OUT because the LAST ONE DIDN’T.
The thing is that I’M feeling like the committee head because the real one does NOTHING, but I’m NOT so I’m stuck in this middle position where I do EVERYTHING and SHE takes all the credit AND makes stupid executive decisions. BUT I actually WANT to do the scrapbook, so it’s like WTF do I do? I don’t want to quit, but I don’t feel like I can go forward either.
So it’s come down to the idea that I’M PISSED and I think I’m going to go conditional for the rest of the semester because I CANNOT take this BULLSHIT anymore. I tried writing a letter to the chapter and it accomplished nothing except people congratulating me for speaking out- even though they don’t share my opinions.
The problem is the exec board. The majority of them stick up for each other, so anybody who has a different opinion is heard, but nothing changes.
I’m so sick of it. I’m SO sick of it. I want to go conditional, but if I do, I lose voting priveledges, so I lose my voice, however small it may be. So my only option is to stay active and wade through the shit for another month or so until we have elections.
Unless they all elect each other back on the fucking exec board like they did last time.
I’m so sick of this.
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Date: 2006-10-17 08:26 pm (UTC)Not to mention the fact that candidates might now have to have a higher GPA to EVEN BE CONSIDERED for Brotherhood than current Active members. And their reasoning? Well because “our process has a tendency for people’s grades to go down”. DOESN’T THAT MEAN THE PROCESS NEEDS TO BE CHANGED INSTEAD OF THE PEOPLE?!?!?!?!?
I had kind of this problem with my social sorority before I graduated, except it was opposite - we were letting in people who we really shouldn't have been letting in. The group used to have standards and was a good group of girls. But the problem was that we pride ourselves on being accepting of everyone. So therein lay the problem - we were too nice for our own good, and there were people I feel like we should not have let in who got in anyway, and now the group's going down the crapper, at least in personal integrity and GPA. We never had a specific requirement beyond the one general Greek Life has - 2.5. And we were making more and more exceptions and suspensions of the constitution to allow girls to remain active whose GPAs were falling below this level. Come on. And of course, I could never say anything, because if anyone thought I was somehow bashing them and their choices, I would get blasted, talked about behind my back, and considered an annoying pest.
One time, our group decided to do a bar crawl, just us, as an optional social event. Fine. I was not planning on going, okay, whatever. So (to my later chagrin) I didn't pay much attention when they were talking about tshirts and what have you. Well, day came, and almost all of my sisters were wearing BRIGHT ORANGE tshirts declaring they were "EUGaholics." (We're the Euglossian Society, Epsilon Upsilon Gamma), and a picture of a skunk (our mascot) with a huge mug of beer and a list on the back of bars. I was flabbergasted and totally offended. I did NOT want to have an alcoholic image label just because I'm part of this group! Besides, alcoholism is a disease, and it was blatantly making fun of a serious medical condition afflicting millions of people. They wore these tshirts ALL DAY. They were impossible to miss. I sent out an email to the group saying that I have nothing against the bar crawl, but that I wish they would not advertise to the whole campus that we are alcoholics. A sister of mine (a pledge class sister no less) replied, TO EVERYONE, with a scathing retort saying that don't worry, she thinks having fun with sisters is a good thing, and that we shouldn't be such tightasses about drinking, and that everyone she's talked to thoguht the shirts were great. Well, I doubt she talked to any professors, and I did. They thoght the same as I, and one was even an honorary member. ARGH. From that point on, I ceased mentally to be a part of that group, and the only reason I didn't go inactive or turn in my letters was that I was two months away from singing out as a senior.
So yeah. Long story short, I feel ya. *pats*
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Date: 2006-10-18 04:08 am (UTC)One of the things I always had to remember about Psi is that while I love it to death, sometimes I just needed a break from it. Conditional status is not a bad thing if it's going to save your sanity. Also whenever I was really pissed at the chapter I remembered that I loved the national organization and it's ideals. So long story short, keep your head up and gimme a call if you need to.