( This is just a quick update on what I've been doing for the past month, and what I hope to accomplish during the coming two before school starts again. )
Oh well. I've left a bunch of stuff out, mostly because it's more fandom based so I'm going to post it at my fandom journal maybe. But that's been my daytime hours for the past couple weeks.
( News )
I’m just crazy I guess.
Oh well. So that’s my little catch-up to life. And my internet is wigging out so this might not get posted for a while. But that’s ok. I can wait.
( School )
( Band )
( Fraternity )
( Christmas )
( Pet’s house! )
I’m back now, obviously, and have plans for this upcoming week along with other news, but it’s late, I’m not feeling well, and I have to be at work in 7 hours so I’m going to sign off now. Goodnight!
I also can't stop thinking of Supernatural. I can't get over the awesomeness of the episode. I think I'm gonna go watch it again.
Our frat had our huge-ass meeting yesterday for 10 hours, but we managed to get a shit-load done, and it was actually a lot more fun than the last one we had. It really was good times, and didn't feel like 10 hours at all. Plus I feel like I've renewed my bonds with a few of my Brothers that I had become slightly estranged with. I really wish we would have an actual Brotherhood, because it felt so good to just kick back with Brothers and forget about politics, drama, and school. It reminded me what I love about this fraternity... and it made me slightly sad that I had forgot in the first place.
Today is free because the basketball game was cancelled... apparently the other team is being held up in Chicago at the moment. I feel for them... hopefully they're not sleeping on the sidewalks like we did in Philly.
Tomorrow is the concert for Marching Band, which means that there's only 1 football game left. YAY! Hopefully the team won't blow it like they did last weekend. And hopefully they'll win today, and Ohio University will lose their last two games. Cuz if we win two and they lose two, we're in the championship. Which, no matter how much I complain about marching band, I would like to see since it hasn't happened since 1973. Or 74. Or 76. Or something. It says in the basketball stadium, but I havn't been in there in a while... but it's only been once in the school's recorded history.
( Updated to-do list )
I’m pissed off and reckless at the moment, so I know I’m going to say things that I might regret later, but at the moment I don’t care. I just need to get it out. And it’s not like they’ll read this anyway.
( Rant about my Frat )
I’m so sick of this.
Also loves Pucker. Namely Island Blue and Sour Apple. And Corona with Lime. As in, one beer and 5 and counting shots.
I apparently get placid when I'm drunk. And horny... but that's another story.
*is ready to take back most of what was said*
( Life (Project Runway and slight SPN Spoilers) )
( Labor Day in PA )
( Band )
That’s pretty much it. I think I’ve finally caught up. Yay. Maybe I’ll be less emo in the future. Oh well.
Next Thursday will hopefully be better… but I’m really scared that they’re going to do my worst fear with Dean. But I’m not going to mention it, because I don’t wanna become more emo. Goodnight.
( Pirates 2 Spoilers )
So now that I have that out of my system, let's talk about work.
I'M QUITTING! WOOT!
Now that that's out of my system, let's talk about last week.
( Busy Busy )
( On to PA )
So this upcoming week, I have to go to work until Saturday, pack my entire apartment, move into the new one, change over all utilities, pay my tuition, pay my ticket, get my car alignment looked at, get my front right tire looked at, get my oil changed, wash my car, get my hair-cut, finish deciding about my tattoo, get my tattoo, go to the Summer Meeting for my Frat, decide about de-clawing my cats, possibly get my cats de-clawed, figure out how to move the dryer from my mom's old house, get my old apartment straightened out, decide which bedroom I want, renew my car insurance, get a new driver's liscence, turn 21, drink, party, puke, and copy music for the Marching Band.
Yeah, I'm fucking busy. No posting until into August. Byebye!
First off, War Games was a blast. What could be more fun than hunting your Brothers down with supersoakers filled with Rit dye all over campus? I'll tell you what... joining forces with a supposed enemy team to take out the red team because Austin, Weeden, D, CanDance, and Andy all got put on the same team. My team, the blue team, AKA Team America, ended up winning... but it was really close. Plus I got to pretend I was Dean for a day... though that was all in my head because I'm a crazy obsessed psycho. I did get to meet and have fun with Brothers and Sisters from Akron, Ashland, and one other place (I'm having a brain fart) which was fun, and going to Mindy's house afterwards was a blast.
The only problem: Elyse's mother died unexpectedly.
So the fun that I had made me feel guilty for having it in the first place. My heart goes out to Elyse.
So then, I stay up half the night Sunday, to be awakened at 11am Monday morning by 4 phone calls. I ignore the first 3, trying desperately to get back to sleep, and then answer the 4th and talk to soulless_lover for a couple hours. We hang up and I'm messing around on the internet by then, when I get another phonecall, which I answer this time. It's my mother's boss. My mom's in the ER with chest pains. I'm in shock for about 30 minutes before I get in my car and drive up to her workplace to get her purse and stuff, then lose it in the car when I drive to the hospital. I pull myself back together enough that I can ask the clerk where she is, run down to the ER, ask again, and get taken to see her.
Seeing your mother in a cart bed on oxygen when she was perfect the day before is a humbling experience.
I fucking lost it. I was sobbing. She managed to tell me that she was ok, she wasn't in pain, and all the tests were coming back showing that she was in good health. But I'd just played out what would happen if my mom were to die in my head, and couldn't stop the repeats of how I'd have lost both my parents before my 21st birthday and everything that I would need to do to take care of things.... selling the house, finding a place for the dog, deciding what to do with the car, deciding what to do with all her stuff... and all without her or anyone else (except my brother who has his own life) to help me. I don't know how she did it when Dad died... but then again, both Dad's parents were still alive to help. I'd have no one.
She transferred to Akron General so that her personal doctor could see her, and they kept her overnight for observation. It turned out that everything looked ok, and the chest pains were probably just acid reflux disease, so that's good, but it still made me realize that my mom's getting up there.... and I would be devastated if she died. I wouldn't know what to do with myself. She is my rock- she's the only one I can take advice from, she helps me in everyway possible, she keeps me sane and on the right track. She's done everything for me and to think that someday I'm going to lose her.... I can't deal with it.
I've learned that I've been dealing with my depression by covering it up and denying it from existing. The reason why I have no drive in life is because I'm afraid to live it. I don't want to grow up, I don't like change and I wish everything could just stay right here right now. I hide my emotions by getting obsessed with things and becoming other people. I have only 1 thing that I know for absolute that I want and that is a family. And I want my mother to know my family and help me and give me advice. The problem is that requires a man/husband and I'm rather far off from finding one of those.
So after the whole mother being in the hospital thing, I get a call from soulless_lover again, who's stressing about her apartment. I told her I'd be able to come and help, but when I got back from the hospital I was really stressed and just wanted to play as Dean for a while, especially since it was Sammy's birthday (May 2nd). So I got on with pet_23 and we played... and it became 10:30pm and I was like... well if em wants me to come she'll call me... and then I get a IM from Ash saying that em's tried calling me like 5 times but wasn't getting thru... and I realize my phone was still off from when I was in the hospital. So I feel totally guilty and she asks me to come and I realized I had class... but I decide I can blow off my last class and help her clean up her apartment, so I drove up to Grafton at 11pm and helped her do her dishes until we collasped at about 4am.
Wednesday was spent watching her get her hair re-done for 5 hours before rushing back, grabbing laundry and rushing to the laundromat before it closed. We did 6 heavy duty garbage bags plus a hamper full of clothes in 1 hour using 1 50 lb. washer, 2 35 lb. ones, and 4 15 lb. ones... plus about 8 dryers. We got it all done and went back and folded it until 2am, then I finished the dishes at 4am again. Then we fell asleep and we got up and did diddly (aka read Lenore comics) until 3:30pm when she had to go to work. I came back to Kent with the intention of playing as Dean because he'd been ACHING to come back out, and got put on hold because I forgot I was going to go help usher at a concert. So I quick drove to the auditorium, ushered for 5 minutes, hugged MA and wished her good luck at her last performance, and then rushed home, hoping to catch my mom so we could look at houses together.... but I'd missed her.
Luckily, a package from pet_23 had come in the mail, so I whipped it open, loved the note, and shoved the DVD of interviews she had made me into my DVD player.... then almost chucked it out the window when it didn't work. (My dad bought the first DVD player on the market... cost $300, and doesn't even play burnt DVDs) Sooo I went to my mom's computer instead... but she doesn't have a DVD program for viewing. So I tried to download a free one.... but my options were limited because she still hasn't upgraded from Windows 98. But I finally managed to find one, install it, and watched 3 interviews with Jensen and Jared, then an interview with Christian Kane (cuz he's HOT and I love Petpet), then a shit load of SPN vids before it was 9pm and SPN was on.
*takes deep breath*
And I totally did not realize how crazy!obsessed!fangirl I was before this fandom. I've NEVER been this crazy about a show until now... and I think it's because of the timing in my life.
But that's another discussion for another time because this post is insanely long and has so far taken 1 hour to write.
In closing... if anyone has the combination to the trunk, or the usernames and passwords to the laptop on the official website for Supernatural... please tell me because I'm DYING to get in there... and I thought I had the combo but I totally didn't. Dad's journal was a blast to read tho. Ok... sleep time. Good night!
First, the results of my audition are in, and I made it! Woo! I'm rather amazed because my audition went SHIT.... I got so nervous I was shaking and screwed up the final movement of my solo, then couldn't find my note to restart it for a good few moments, then finally found it and finished it. Then sight-reading... yeah there's a thing called a key-signature, right? Well I forgot ALLLL about that and started playing. Mr. Chunn was like, "Ok hang on... I think if you'll look at the key signature you'll like the piece better." Then he put a piece in 6/8 time in front of me and there were lots of 16th notes in it... and my brain was panicing so badly that I really couldn't play it. He put a different 6/8 piece in front of me and I could play that, so he told me to go back and I was like "Uhm... I really don't know how to count that...." And he was like "Well we can teach you that." I left the audition thinking that photography might not be so bad after all... but then I got the letter saying I made it. Yay for me! Now I'm just nervous because they were obviously banking on something, and for the life of me I can't think of what.
In other news I had a job interview and thought it went great, expect I havn't heard anything in a week. I'm planning on calling tomorrow to see...
And in further news, I had an eventful weekend, cuz Saturday was the Unofficial Beta Psi goes to Mongolian BBQ trip, and from there I went to soulless_lover 's mom's house to visit her. She's still in a bunch of pain, but the surgery went well and did what it was supposed to. I gave her a wee little devil ducky I found, and we watched the Chronicals of Narnia with her niece. It was a good film in the way of Edmund=Drake, but I felt SO cheated by all the damn Christian imagery. *sigh for that* Other than that I really liked it and we had a good time watching it. After that we talked for a while, and then it was getting late so I drove back home.
A storm woke me up at 6:30 am, and so I decided to get an early start on my single person roadtrip to pet_23 's house. It's so far the farthest I've driven on my own, and it wasn't so bad on the way there. The sun was out and it was really rather fun. I felt like I had freedom to just the open road taking me anywhere I wanted to go. When I got to her house she introduced me to Supernatural. Yeah. I'm OBSESSED now. Not to say I'm done with Buffy/Angel, FAR from it, but the appeal of Dean and Sammy... mmmmmmmmmmmm. We watched 15 episodes of it, ending at 1:30am when I got there at about 12:30pm.... with a short break to go and get new bowls for her doggy from Wal-Mart... in which we were both slightly tired and unable to speak properly... and came up with a wonderful new word for "evil". "DARRGG!!!" I don't even remember how it came about, but Darg became the new catchphrase of the weekend.
Darg. adj. meaning: evil. "Dean was all DARG in Skin and he was HAWT."
The next day we got up and went out to eat for a while before coming back and watching the remaining episodes... and Hell House is my favourite so far, just because of the pranks. Though I'd have to rate Home really high up there, as well as Something Wicked, cuz Home was gutwrenching, and Something Wicked was full of Dean angst. Dean's my favourite now, though I can't say I don't love Sammy, but Dean's personality is so much better. *hides from Pet* He's just... hot. Plus the fact that Jensen and Christian Kane are RL friends makes my insides go melty. Sooo then we started burning DVDs for me because Pet's just awesome like that, and spent the rest of the night talking about naughty-wrong-lustful wincest fantasies.... and I got beaten by a pillow cuz I couldn't stop from helping Pet's "non"wrong thoughts become wrong. Heh heh heh. So then we finally fell asleep and I had to leave by 1:30pm, so I woke up early and packed, before Pet woke up and we said goodbye.
Driving back at 80 mph in pouring down rain through Pennsylvania's mountains sucks. I don't think I could have done it if it had been night, because I could barely seen anything half the time, and I freaked myself out twice going too fast around a curve. Then I started channeling some Dean, and relaxed. Maybe if I'd been in a '67 Chevy Impala I could have relaxed further..... but we won't go into carlust.
Annnnyway. Yeah. Thursdays, 9pm. Watch it. Only 2 episodes left in the regular season. I think that's about it for now. Good night!
Hurrah. I'm in a good mood. After a horrible joint meeting (bitch must die) and a pretty good active meeting, a bunch of us walked across campus to a car, then drvoe to the stadium and trespassed on the 50 yard line at about midnight. Then we discovered the new walking bridge over Rt. 261 and stargazed for a while, then walked back to the summit east parking lot and talked until 1:30am. Made me really happy cuz it was fun. The only downside was that I lost my house and mailbox key sometime during the fun.... so now I have to search for them when it's light outside.
In other news, after a shitty spring break full of angst, stuff is better now... and I can't remember if I said anything about it in my last post, but it's worked out for the most part. Still recovering slightly, but feelin good for the most part.
I've fallen head over heels into any pairing involving Lindsey/Christian Kane after realizing how in love with him I really was. God I love that man. I spent all last night digging up old and new fics and RPS involving him and am planning on doing more tonight.
I also realized how much I miss RPing... especially slash rping, so I'm applying for a new RP and learned that the old Hogwarts one I did during highschool is still running, so I was considering applying back there again. I have lots of time on my hands and really really miss forum based RPs. Plus the Hoggies one will be cool if it's the same people running it- they were my first real internet friends and they introduced me to lots of roleplaying/anime stuff. It's through them that I learned what anime was and the one girl got me heavily into Rurouni Kenshin, which I'm still into.
My kittens are getting bigger and Bailey's voice has changed... Drake's falling behind in the puberty department, but I'm sure him voice will change at some point.
Oh and I've learned how to cook! Ash taught me how to make packet meals while she was here and emily taught me how to combine lots of random stuff to things and still make it taste good. I've made a packet meal on my own, along with my first marinade and even successfully made myself a hamburger from my old molding of ground beef. I'm so proud of myself!
Plus, Tami showed me where I could download a dvd burner thingy and now I'm able to record clips straight to my computer so I can actually start learning how to make my own vids! I'm SO excited! I just have to decide what clips I want to use in the 2 songs I've already picked out, and record them and then learn how to put them together. Hurrah!
The only scared thing is that my audition for switching to a Music Education majour is next saturday and I havn't practiced since before spring break. But it's kinda sad that when I really think about it, I won't be too unhappy if I fail. I'll just go on to photography or photojournalism or something. I'm kinda on the college trial program. I'll try about 40 things until I find one I like.
Oh well. Time to look up more Lindsey slash. Hurray!
(I even made my own icon)
First off, the KSU Men's Basketball team became the champions of the MAC tournament this year and went on to the NCAA. That was amazing. At the MAC championship and almost having a heart attack because they let Toledo come back to be within 3 points of tieing the game. But we won and watched our fans charge the floor and celebrate. That was cool. What was cooler was going to Michigan for the NCAA! We had been hoping it would be someplace far away like San Diego, CA or something, but it actually turned out to be good that we only went to MI because not only did we have a load of fans come, but we lost in the first round against Pitt. It was sad having to come back home after only 2 days, but it would have been tons worse having to go back home after only 2 days in San Diego. Even though we lost, our men fought valiently, the refs needed to be shot, and KSU still had an AMAZING season.
As for Kappa Kappa Psi- The candidates are active now, yay for them!! I'm slightly concerned that my little doesn't seem to like his nickname, but I suck at things like that, and it was about all I could think of. :( I'm excited about a D&D game that my one Brother is planning on running for us, cuz I've never played Eberron before and I think it will be fun. Also, the NCD convention was last weekend, and other than having a fever for the entire time and a couple other Brothers getting sick, I had a blast. I went to 3 workshops by myself, (which was kinda sad) participated in them, and really really enjoyed Reading Band this year. Last year it was stop and start, this year we played every piece in our folder all the way through. It was a 100% improvement. We spent alot of time with Toledo (Oh no it's Beta Rho!) a little time with Akron, and enjoyed mingling with brothers from all over the district. Plus the night before convention I had the KKY district council camp out in my apartment, and I believe my cats had a blast in keeping them awake. (Sorry!) I was sad to see the council go, and wish for the best for the next one, because it will be hard to top the Year of the Cock. ( ;) ) Plus MA's final report made our entire chapter cry... In other KKPsi news, I'm planning on running for office next year, though I'm not entirely sure which one I want to go for yet... and it depends on whether I manage to get a chapter office first.
My kittens are growing. Alot. Both of them have little fat tummies sticking out now, and Bailey managed to get one front paw through his collar. If it had been just a little tighter and in a different place he could have possibly strangled.... which made me have another breakdown and they're not wearing collars anymore. Maybe when they're older. They also killed their first spider, and I was slightly surprised to find myself feeling pity for the spider... watching two kittens torture this little arachnid to death made me realize that Death by Kitten could possibly fall under Cruel and Unusual Punishment.
soulless_lover has a kidney stone, so love to her, and hope for a speedy recovery. Though she's sitting in my living room right now... she'll possibly see this later ;)
kidcyclone is also currently in my living room, and I made my list about a week and a half ago, so this area was supposed to be reserved for how excited I was going to be to see her, but I think I'll change it to how much I love her and hope she's having a good time.
Job status: None. Application status: 4 submitted. Debt: $1200+. Hope of getting job: Not so much.
"Money?" (that's what's written on my list.) I can't remember what I was going to say about it other than I've got none and owe my mom $1200. A job would be nice. Is there a patron saint of Job Applications?
Spring Break ends in 3 days. I've decided to become a Music Education major... interesting anecdote about that. I've always wanted to be one... I didn't want to leave high school because it meant growing up so teaching was always a possibility. I loved my band director best out of all the teachers I ever had. I've wanted to do this. The Beta Omega class was very supportive... my own Little helped me apply for an audition and has given me tons of advice and info. I announced my plans in a joint meeting and got an applause from TBS (they're all Music Ed majors). I announced my plans in a KKpsi meeting and got groans. I told kidcyclone and she was all for it... I told my mom and she groaned. Why is it that of the 3 people/groups that I care about their opinion most (my Brothers, kidcyclone, my mom), 2 out of the 3 are not supportive and everyone else was more supportive than I've ever seen? Oh well.
Drama needs to be prohibited from the world. I could say everything I'm thinking, but I think I'll save it for a notebook because it could hurt about 8 or 9 people if I just vent and don't consider what I'm saying. I'm sick of fucking drama.
This entry is divided into two parts, good things/news and bad things/news. Bad things first.
First off, hugs to Aimee, a Brother in our chapter whose great grandmother just passed away. Second, hugs for Aaron, whose grandmother isn't doing so well either. Hugs to them both.
I think I pulled muscle or something in my leg, because it bloody hurts to walk on and it feels like all the muscles in it are really tight. It's probably because I've been DDRing and I havn't gotten that whole "warm up" thing down yet... I just kinda jump in. Then I stand up for 3 hours straight at basketball games, and run up and down bleachers... so it's not too happy with me.
In the "hurts" section also belongs my finger.... which Bailey stabbed with his claw yesterday morning. I was tying my shoe and he comes over and just sticks his claw deep into my index finger. He didn't rip it or anything... just in an out, but it was deep and felt as though I'd just stabbed myself with a needle. Then (me being smart) I didn't wash it so now it's a throbbing bump, and when I squeeze it puss comes out... so I think it's infected. It's acting like a really fucking painful pimple. Guess he got me back for accidently nearly closing the door on his tail, which I cuddled him and apologized over and over for after he was done hissing at me.
Also in the bad things section is the fact that I can't remember when kidcyclone comes back from Oregon and I feel bad calling her... but I think it's soon, thought I'm not sure. I hope that things are ok when she gets back tho... cuz she said that her husband is having car issues... as in they need a new one. Oh well... not much I can do about it other than give hugs and distractions.
Good things section:
I fricking learned how to use my Paint Shop program and OMG I'm so excited!!! Finally I found the "smudge" button and the "clone" button and lots of other buttons and I made my first manip last night! (Tho it's for my fraternity so I'm not going to post it because no one would get it.) I think it's pretty good for what I had to work with though. Maybe I will post it in time, but not right now.
My kitties are now completely boostered and vaccinated against everything they need to be, which makes me happy... tho Bailey fucking HATES the vet now. The first time we went he was curious until they gave him a shot... and he became a hissing monster... but calmed down. The second time I could barely get him out of the cat carrier... and when I did he was absolutely flat against the table, hissing at anything that moved, and trying to scratch Dr. Albers during the shot. He let me pet him gently (tho he did hiss at me) and when the Vet assistant tried to pet him, he was having none of that!! I managed to calm him down a bit afterward, and when we got home he was right as rain, but I couldn't believe the little hissing crazy he turned into. Analysis: Bailey+Vet=Hissing Devil. Drake on the other hand was as happy, curious, and hyper as usual, and only hissed when in the waiting room (while inside the carrier) when a dog got too close to the side of the carrier. And the dog was a massive 100+ pound boxer mix with a head larger than both my cats combined. I really don't think Drake was all that scary... but he tried which I guess gives kudos to him. (Loves my cats)
Let's see..... Oh I got rid of two more subscriptions to MMORPGs I never play anymore, which makes me happy, frees up tons of space on my computer, and saves me $30 more a month. Now I just have to figure out how to cancel FFXI since I uninstalled it already, and I need to plug my internet into my PS2 so I can unsubscribe from Everquest: Online Adventures since through the program is the only way to do so. (grumbles about phone calls that take 30 minutes due to all the damn button pushing when I have 1 specific question)
I finally found one of my favourite games for the Dreamcast, Evolution at the CD Game exchange... and I spent about 6 hours playing it. I love that game sooo much... it's one of the first RPGs I ever played. I first bought it for my brother's birthday when the Dreamcast was still new and worthwhile, and then when he went to college he took it with him and managed to get the system and all the games stolen... so I'm in the process of rebuilding the collection for myself. Now all I need is Evolution 2 (which I hadn't managed to beat) and I'll be set. God I love those games.
I also got new letters made and I love them so much... they look so cool. (Letters as in: Kappa Kappa Psi on a T-Shirt)
And the final good thing: KENT STATE MENS BASKETBALL FINISHED THEIR NORMAL SEASON #1 IN THE MAC... which means we automatically get a by in the MAC tourney. YAAAAAAAY TEAM! Hopefully we'll make it into the NCAA, which means the band is headed with the team to either: San Diego, Jacksonville, or Salt Lake City. LET'S GO KENT STATE!!!!
Think that's about it! It's dawn outside... and I have about 6-7 hours for sleep so I might want to get going.
Daddysire should be happy tho.... cuz I've brushed my teeth for the past three nights in a row. Yay for me!
That's about it. The Candidates are on their way to potentially becoming Brothers, and are getting further everyday, and I'm proud of them. Other than that, life's been slightly dull.
However, a little relief was gained 2 weekends ago when soulless_lover came down to my house for the weekend, which was fun times, even though my toilet was clogged for 2 of the 4 days she was here, and then she had an allergic reaction to my cats which sucked... but watching Eddie Izzard, Robin Williams, The Reduced Shakespere Company, and PBS's Manor House on DVD was fun times. Plus the basketball game was interesting even tho we got there at halftime because I can't read.
Last weekend my brother came up to visit again, which was nice cuz I hadn't seen him since Christmas. We went out for dinner, and then Saturday I woke up with a sore throat, went to the basketball game, and yelled myself hoarse, before going out in the bitter cold for some shopping time with my mom. Got back and collapsed in a fever on the couch, watched the olympics for a bit before coming home and shivering to death in my bed fully dressed, heat turned way up, under 9 blankets and a sleeping bag. Sunday was outside Fraternity stuff all day, which didn't help much, and Sunday night was spent about the same at Saturday, with the cold and fever bit. Monday I stayed inside all day, skipped my class and my meetings, hearted my mom when she came over and made me mac and cheese in my apt while I froze on the couch (again under all the blankets I owned) and then woke up early this morning feeling a little better at noon, when I went out of my house for the first time for Big/Little time. Then I went back home and found my fever again, and skipped band and the basketball game to freeze at my computer. I'm starting to feel a little better again (yay for non-prescription medicine) except I've completely lost my voice and it hurts to even try to talk. So I type instead.
In other news, kidcyclone is visiting her daddy in Oregon this week, which means I've not got her to play with and I really need a spanking. *sigh* I'd like to write a story to make up for it, but my muse must have left when I graduated high-school, because I've not written a good story since.
Soon, though, she'll be visiting me... (and by me, I mean me, emily, pet, and our other friend annie) and I'll be getting lotsa spankings, so that makes me happy to think about, and keeps me going. *smile* Think I'll try and write a story now.
Yeah so I can't remember what I was typing about... I think it was about what I did when I brought soulless_lover back to her place... which is basically check out a car with her dad so that her old rust bucket could meet a new home. She apparently got it, so that rocks, yay for me being nice to my friends.
Other than that I'm coming up on my first run of bills that I have to pay by myself... and they suck. I have to borrow $200 from my mom to be sure the check doesn't bounce.
Finally took overdue DVDs back that were overdue by like 12 days. Yay.
Changed the litter in my kittens' litterbox for the second time, and used new litter which they seem to like alright... we'll see if it really handles smell better. It's supposidly for "small spaces" but we'll see...
My Little in the Frat is doing pretty good... tho the Candidate class just went through their first tough meeting. I hope they do better than ours did, since we lost a member at this time of our class. I feel for them, though... it's tough. Lurve to them.
Feeling kinda down since it's 3am... I love my kittens but I've been missing having like... a person in my life. I think that's why I'm planning on getting into Fanfiction again. I realized I stopped writing when I came out of my depression. Huh, imagine that? I hope I'm not getting depressed again. Though I heart the LJ because I can journal and it doesn't feel like a chore. I should really back up these files and print them out so in like 30 years I can be like: OMG look how stupid and young I was!! And try to remember what OMG stood for 30 years ago. (It's not Ohio Medical Group like the sign near soulless_lover's house says.)
Think I'll write for a bit then read, then sleep. Daddysire already went to bed. He'll probably punish me for being up so late. Oh well. I don't have any classes tomorrow.
First and foremost, I managed to write a 5 page paper without know what my subject was in 5 hours. YAY FOR ME. I'm SO HAPPY that's done. It was for my History class. Now all I have to do is write an English paper and study for 2 final tests and I'll be done with work for school.
Seeing Daddysire in:
Then I'm gone for a week, come back for Christmas, and (SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS) on December 27th, I'm moving into my very own 1 bedroom apartment all to myself. HELL YES. This means I can have Daddysire and anyone else I want over and won't have to worry about people learning what we're up to. ALSO (SOOOO HAPPYYYY) THEY ALLOW CATS!!!!!!!!!! I've always wanted a cat. Alot. A very lot. So I'm getting one. I'm moving on the 27th, and getting a kitten from the APL that very day if I can. SOOO EXCITEEDDD!!!
So then, Spring Break, or random weekends, people can come and visit me, instead of me being the traveler to everywhere else and being ashamed to have people get within 249 miles of my city. (a little exagerated but you get the point.) Plus, Daddysire's never been to Ohio.... I wonder whether Daddysire's ever seen snow.... perhaps Daddysire should come visit me to learn what lake effect snow and coldness are really all about... *evil grin*.
Yeah, so I'm intensly happy. Like, I'm fucking exstatic. And I can't even spell the damn word.
Also, in the Fraternity... we picked Littles, and I'm excited for mine. Not gonna say no more. Just that I think it's going to be a good semester next.
(you get a happy if you can identify where that's from)