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soulless_lover for a couple hours. We hang up and I'm messing around on the internet by then, when I get another phonecall, which I answer this time. It's my mother's boss. My mom's in the ER with chest pains. I'm in shock for about 30 minutes before I get in my car and drive up to her workplace to get her purse and stuff, then lose it in the car when I drive to the hospital. I pull myself back together enough that I can ask the clerk where she is, run down to the ER, ask again, and get taken to see her. soulless_lover again, who's stressing about her apartment. I told her I'd be able to come and help, but when I got back from the hospital I was really stressed and just wanted to play as Dean for a while, especially since it was Sammy's birthday (May 2nd). So I got on with pet_23 and we played... and it became 10:30pm and I was like... well if em wants me to come she'll call me... and then I get a IM from Ash saying that em's tried calling me like 5 times but wasn't getting thru... and I realize my phone was still off from when I was in the hospital. So I feel totally guilty and she asks me to come and I realized I had class... but I decide I can blow off my last class and help her clean up her apartment, so I drove up to Grafton at 11pm and helped her do her dishes until we collasped at about 4am.pet_23 had come in the mail, so I whipped it open, loved the note, and shoved the DVD of interviews she had made me into my DVD player.... then almost chucked it out the window when it didn't work. (My dad bought the first DVD player on the market... cost $300, and doesn't even play burnt DVDs) Sooo I went to my mom's computer instead... but she doesn't have a DVD program for viewing. So I tried to download a free one.... but my options were limited because she still hasn't upgraded from Windows 98. But I finally managed to find one, install it, and watched 3 interviews with Jensen and Jared, then an interview with Christian Kane (cuz he's HOT and I love Petpet), then a shit load of SPN vids before it was 9pm and SPN was on. soulless_lover 's mom's house to visit her. She's still in a bunch of pain, but the surgery went well and did what it was supposed to. I gave her a wee little devil ducky I found, and we watched the Chronicals of Narnia with her niece. It was a good film in the way of Edmund=Drake, but I felt SO cheated by all the damn Christian imagery. *sigh for that* Other than that I really liked it and we had a good time watching it. After that we talked for a while, and then it was getting late so I drove back home. pet_23 's house. It's so far the farthest I've driven on my own, and it wasn't so bad on the way there. The sun was out and it was really rather fun. I felt like I had freedom to just the open road taking me anywhere I wanted to go. When I got to her house she introduced me to Supernatural. Yeah. I'm OBSESSED now. Not to say I'm done with Buffy/Angel, FAR from it, but the appeal of Dean and Sammy... mmmmmmmmmmmm. We watched 15 episodes of it, ending at 1:30am when I got there at about 12:30pm.... with a short break to go and get new bowls for her doggy from Wal-Mart... in which we were both slightly tired and unable to speak properly... and came up with a wonderful new word for "evil". "DARRGG!!!" I don't even remember how it came about, but Darg became the new catchphrase of the weekend. Hurrah. I'm in a good mood. After a horrible joint meeting (bitch must die) and a pretty good active meeting, a bunch of us walked across campus to a car, then drvoe to the stadium and trespassed on the 50 yard line at about midnight. Then we discovered the new walking bridge over Rt. 261 and stargazed for a while, then walked back to the summit east parking lot and talked until 1:30am. Made me really happy cuz it was fun. The only downside was that I lost my house and mailbox key sometime during the fun.... so now I have to search for them when it's light outside.
In other news, after a shitty spring break full of angst, stuff is better now... and I can't remember if I said anything about it in my last post, but it's worked out for the most part. Still recovering slightly, but feelin good for the most part.
I've fallen head over heels into any pairing involving Lindsey/Christian Kane after realizing how in love with him I really was. God I love that man. I spent all last night digging up old and new fics and RPS involving him and am planning on doing more tonight.
I also realized how much I miss RPing... especially slash rping, so I'm applying for a new RP and learned that the old Hogwarts one I did during highschool is still running, so I was considering applying back there again. I have lots of time on my hands and really really miss forum based RPs. Plus the Hoggies one will be cool if it's the same people running it- they were my first real internet friends and they introduced me to lots of roleplaying/anime stuff. It's through them that I learned what anime was and the one girl got me heavily into Rurouni Kenshin, which I'm still into.
My kittens are getting bigger and Bailey's voice has changed... Drake's falling behind in the puberty department, but I'm sure him voice will change at some point.
Oh and I've learned how to cook! Ash taught me how to make packet meals while she was here and emily taught me how to combine lots of random stuff to things and still make it taste good. I've made a packet meal on my own, along with my first marinade and even successfully made myself a hamburger from my old molding of ground beef. I'm so proud of myself!
Plus, Tami showed me where I could download a dvd burner thingy and now I'm able to record clips straight to my computer so I can actually start learning how to make my own vids! I'm SO excited! I just have to decide what clips I want to use in the 2 songs I've already picked out, and record them and then learn how to put them together. Hurrah!
The only scared thing is that my audition for switching to a Music Education majour is next saturday and I havn't practiced since before spring break. But it's kinda sad that when I really think about it, I won't be too unhappy if I fail. I'll just go on to photography or photojournalism or something. I'm kinda on the college trial program. I'll try about 40 things until I find one I like.
Oh well. Time to look up more Lindsey slash. Hurray!
(I even made my own icon)
soulless_lover has a kidney stone, so love to her, and hope for a speedy recovery. Though she's sitting in my living room right now... she'll possibly see this later ;)kidcyclone is also currently in my living room, and I made my list about a week and a half ago, so this area was supposed to be reserved for how excited I was going to be to see her, but I think I'll change it to how much I love her and hope she's having a good time.kidcyclone and she was all for it... I told my mom and she groaned. Why is it that of the 3 people/groups that I care about their opinion most (my Brothers, kidcyclone, my mom), 2 out of the 3 are not supportive and everyone else was more supportive than I've ever seen? Oh well. This entry is divided into two parts, good things/news and bad things/news. Bad things first.
Boo:
First off, hugs to Aimee, a Brother in our chapter whose great grandmother just passed away. Second, hugs for Aaron, whose grandmother isn't doing so well either. Hugs to them both.
I think I pulled muscle or something in my leg, because it bloody hurts to walk on and it feels like all the muscles in it are really tight. It's probably because I've been DDRing and I havn't gotten that whole "warm up" thing down yet... I just kinda jump in. Then I stand up for 3 hours straight at basketball games, and run up and down bleachers... so it's not too happy with me.
In the "hurts" section also belongs my finger.... which Bailey stabbed with his claw yesterday morning. I was tying my shoe and he comes over and just sticks his claw deep into my index finger. He didn't rip it or anything... just in an out, but it was deep and felt as though I'd just stabbed myself with a needle. Then (me being smart) I didn't wash it so now it's a throbbing bump, and when I squeeze it puss comes out... so I think it's infected. It's acting like a really fucking painful pimple. Guess he got me back for accidently nearly closing the door on his tail, which I cuddled him and apologized over and over for after he was done hissing at me.
Also in the bad things section is the fact that I can't remember when kidcyclone comes back from Oregon and I feel bad calling her... but I think it's soon, thought I'm not sure. I hope that things are ok when she gets back tho... cuz she said that her husband is having car issues... as in they need a new one. Oh well... not much I can do about it other than give hugs and distractions.
Yay:
Good things section:
I fricking learned how to use my Paint Shop program and OMG I'm so excited!!! Finally I found the "smudge" button and the "clone" button and lots of other buttons and I made my first manip last night! (Tho it's for my fraternity so I'm not going to post it because no one would get it.) I think it's pretty good for what I had to work with though. Maybe I will post it in time, but not right now.
My kitties are now completely boostered and vaccinated against everything they need to be, which makes me happy... tho Bailey fucking HATES the vet now. The first time we went he was curious until they gave him a shot... and he became a hissing monster... but calmed down. The second time I could barely get him out of the cat carrier... and when I did he was absolutely flat against the table, hissing at anything that moved, and trying to scratch Dr. Albers during the shot. He let me pet him gently (tho he did hiss at me) and when the Vet assistant tried to pet him, he was having none of that!! I managed to calm him down a bit afterward, and when we got home he was right as rain, but I couldn't believe the little hissing crazy he turned into. Analysis: Bailey+Vet=Hissing Devil. Drake on the other hand was as happy, curious, and hyper as usual, and only hissed when in the waiting room (while inside the carrier) when a dog got too close to the side of the carrier. And the dog was a massive 100+ pound boxer mix with a head larger than both my cats combined. I really don't think Drake was all that scary... but he tried which I guess gives kudos to him. (Loves my cats)
Let's see..... Oh I got rid of two more subscriptions to MMORPGs I never play anymore, which makes me happy, frees up tons of space on my computer, and saves me $30 more a month. Now I just have to figure out how to cancel FFXI since I uninstalled it already, and I need to plug my internet into my PS2 so I can unsubscribe from Everquest: Online Adventures since through the program is the only way to do so. (grumbles about phone calls that take 30 minutes due to all the damn button pushing when I have 1 specific question)
I finally found one of my favourite games for the Dreamcast, Evolution at the CD Game exchange... and I spent about 6 hours playing it. I love that game sooo much... it's one of the first RPGs I ever played. I first bought it for my brother's birthday when the Dreamcast was still new and worthwhile, and then when he went to college he took it with him and managed to get the system and all the games stolen... so I'm in the process of rebuilding the collection for myself. Now all I need is Evolution 2 (which I hadn't managed to beat) and I'll be set. God I love those games.
I also got new letters made and I love them so much... they look so cool. (Letters as in: Kappa Kappa Psi on a T-Shirt)
And the final good thing: KENT STATE MENS BASKETBALL FINISHED THEIR NORMAL SEASON #1 IN THE MAC... which means we automatically get a by in the MAC tourney. YAAAAAAAY TEAM! Hopefully we'll make it into the NCAA, which means the band is headed with the team to either: San Diego, Jacksonville, or Salt Lake City. LET'S GO KENT STATE!!!!
Think that's about it! It's dawn outside... and I have about 6-7 hours for sleep so I might want to get going.
Daddysire should be happy tho.... cuz I've brushed my teeth for the past three nights in a row. Yay for me!
soulless_lover came down to my house for the weekend, which was fun times, even though my toilet was clogged for 2 of the 4 days she was here, and then she had an allergic reaction to my cats which sucked... but watching Eddie Izzard, Robin Williams, The Reduced Shakespere Company, and PBS's Manor House on DVD was fun times. Plus the basketball game was interesting even tho we got there at halftime because I can't read.kidcyclone is visiting her daddy in Oregon this week, which means I've not got her to play with and I really need a spanking. *sigh* I'd like to write a story to make up for it, but my muse must have left when I graduated high-school, because I've not written a good story since. 
Yeah so I can't remember what I was typing about... I think it was about what I did when I brought soulless_lover back to her place... which is basically check out a car with her dad so that her old rust bucket could meet a new home. She apparently got it, so that rocks, yay for me being nice to my friends.
Other than that I'm coming up on my first run of bills that I have to pay by myself... and they suck. I have to borrow $200 from my mom to be sure the check doesn't bounce.
Finally took overdue DVDs back that were overdue by like 12 days. Yay.
Changed the litter in my kittens' litterbox for the second time, and used new litter which they seem to like alright... we'll see if it really handles smell better. It's supposidly for "small spaces" but we'll see...
My Little in the Frat is doing pretty good... tho the Candidate class just went through their first tough meeting. I hope they do better than ours did, since we lost a member at this time of our class. I feel for them, though... it's tough. Lurve to them.
Feeling kinda down since it's 3am... I love my kittens but I've been missing having like... a person in my life. I think that's why I'm planning on getting into Fanfiction again. I realized I stopped writing when I came out of my depression. Huh, imagine that? I hope I'm not getting depressed again. Though I heart the LJ because I can journal and it doesn't feel like a chore. I should really back up these files and print them out so in like 30 years I can be like: OMG look how stupid and young I was!! And try to remember what OMG stood for 30 years ago. (It's not Ohio Medical Group like the sign near soulless_lover's house says.)
Think I'll write for a bit then read, then sleep. Daddysire already went to bed. He'll probably punish me for being up so late. Oh well. I don't have any classes tomorrow.
First and foremost, I managed to write a 5 page paper without know what my subject was in 5 hours. YAY FOR ME. I'm SO HAPPY that's done. It was for my History class. Now all I have to do is write an English paper and study for 2 final tests and I'll be done with work for school.
One Week.
Seeing Daddysire in:
One Week.
ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then I'm gone for a week, come back for Christmas, and (SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS) on December 27th, I'm moving into my very own 1 bedroom apartment all to myself. HELL YES. This means I can have Daddysire and anyone else I want over and won't have to worry about people learning what we're up to. ALSO (SOOOO HAPPYYYY) THEY ALLOW CATS!!!!!!!!!! I've always wanted a cat. Alot. A very lot. So I'm getting one. I'm moving on the 27th, and getting a kitten from the APL that very day if I can. SOOO EXCITEEDDD!!!
So then, Spring Break, or random weekends, people can come and visit me, instead of me being the traveler to everywhere else and being ashamed to have people get within 249 miles of my city. (a little exagerated but you get the point.) Plus, Daddysire's never been to Ohio.... I wonder whether Daddysire's ever seen snow.... perhaps Daddysire should come visit me to learn what lake effect snow and coldness are really all about... *evil grin*.
Yeah, so I'm intensly happy. Like, I'm fucking exstatic. And I can't even spell the damn word.
Also, in the Fraternity... we picked Littles, and I'm excited for mine. Not gonna say no more. Just that I think it's going to be a good semester next.
I'm HAPPYYY...
HAAPPPYYYY.....
OOF!
(you get a happy if you can identify where that's from)
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